It’s so nice to have the zine done. Finally. It was a lot of work and a lot of glue, but I really like the end result. It’s snazzy for a first-zine, I think. I know I learned a hell of a lot while making it. Perhaps the greatest lesson of all was ACCOUNT FOR MARGINS. Still, I love it for all its flaws. I can’t wait to leave copies of it places for people to find. It’s like leaving pots of gold at the end of different rainbows, there to make someone’s day.

Tonight was also the start of Shaun’s Pathfinder campaign. Role playing! So awesome. I really dig how he DMs with so much back story and description. He makes the world we’re playing that much more rich. I can see the colors of Medagio’s mansion, taste the ale, hear the gossip of people lurking in taverns. To me, role playing is like acting out a huge novel. We supply the bulk of the characterization while the DM creates a well-woven backdrop for us to place them. I lose myself easily in the whole process of it. Role playing is writing without paper, without complete control and extra variables. It’s amazing stuff.

I’m trying to take a step back from myself and my obsession with producing. I’m trying to look at the flowers and just enjoy my walk. Since the weather has been nice, I’ve been walking more, just looking around noticing how winter’s grip is losing its hold. I’m easy-going, and I’m doing my best not to sweat the small stuff.

I have a lot to write tomorrow. Definitely.

Zero People Love Me

Written with 4d6 by Nichole.
Filed away under friends, role playing, starving artist, video, web design, zine

Short post with no video, but I am happy to report I wrote and edited today for about eight hours. It was a good feeling. Very… cleansing. I feel refreshed after scraping all the gunk off me.

I’m going to be cryptic for now, because I can be. You all just have to deal with it. :)

Thinking of a new zine to do as well: either Pieces #2 or something new entirely. I’m going to print off the first run of Pieces #1 tomorrow. I can’t wait to see how that goes. Wish me luck!

2 Shout Outs

Written with amazing powers by Nichole.
Filed away under starving artist, writing, zine

I set my alarm for 6. And then again at 6:15. I hope these new alarm times will allow me enough leeway to roll out of bed at 6:30. This morning I didn’t get up until quarter-til 8, and I was furious with myself. I should not be doing that.

Let’s see if this new plan of attack works. I hope it does. Then I can make myself a good breakfast and still be ready to go at about 8.

I don’t know why I’m so obsessed with keeping time.

Despite dwelling on my lateness this morning, today was overall a very pleasurable day. I spent the first half of it coding. I ate a good lunch around 12 and watched a Let’s Play before meeting Marisol at the gym. Then I spent the rest of the day researching and writing hunkered down in the corner of the library.

I’m not sure what I’m going to do with what I’m writing now. They’re just little pieces of thought, little vignettes of the past. The time line is very crooked and I’m not sure where it’s leading, but hey, I’m along for the ride. It’s one of those times in my life where I will just close my eyes and go with the motions, only finding out where I am at the very end.

I wonder…

1 Shout Out

Written with a full belly by Nichole.
Filed away under books, friends, starving artist, video, writing