Jinked

I took the day off today to watch my sister graduate college with orange hair and honors cords. She has her undergrad in psychology now, will soon move on to graduate school and eventually obtain her doctorate. It’s wild. Someone in our family wants to be a doctor. And here I was  just happy with my BA!

When I graduated college it was a scary time for me, so filled with the unknown and so many nightmares of failure. It was more than a little rough. For ten months I scrambled, searching anywhere I could for a job, any job that would take me. I feared that those people who mocked me and my English degree were going to be right. I didn’t want to have a college education and be stuck flipping burgers for the rest of my life.

I did it for ten months though. I was a very educated fast food worker with a shiny diploma that affirmed I indeed graduated Summa Cum Laude. Mighty depressing.

Ten months and I finally got something. What a painful journey.

Sometimes your education doesn’t seem worth shit in the grand scheme of things. Honestly, it really hasn’t helped my job prospects any. I did not go to school for web design or development at all. It was always a hobby, and I was fortunate enough to turn my hobby into a career. However, I do not regret the time I invested into a college education. I’m a student; I always will be. I love to learn and grow and meet new people. I discovered so many new things as an undergrad, new loves and passions. I have a lot of thanks for my mineralogy class!

I know my sister is feeling a little shaken about the future as well, and she should. I’d be worried if she wasn’t because it would mean she really wasn’t thinking about it. Being a little uncomfortable about your life is a good thing. It means you’re conscious of it. It means you will most likely work towards change, fulfillment or actualization.

She’s a smart woman. I know she will do just fine. Being a little uncomfortable about life is good, but dousing yourself in worry isn’t healthy. Walking that thin line, that’s what it’s all about. It gives you a great sense of balance in all regards.

I’m so proud of you, Ana. You are loved by so many people. You will do great things. You have much to offer this world. Plus, you wear orange hair pretty darn well.

Remember that.

My dad always has to be a little crazy. It wouldn't be a dad picture if he wasn't.