Jinked

I remember calling my father late in January of last year, my fingers shaking over the keys of my cell phone, and asking him if he thought it would be foolish to resign from my job. I wanted to take time off. To do creative things. Deep inside myself I was afraid he would confirm my fears, and that I would be stuck forever in [...]

Not long ago, Rahsaan was saying how he only blogged when he had something depressing to talk about. It’s because that was when he remembered to even blog in the first place. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my life, my career, my dreams. I’m weighing options. I’m deciding what is important. Honestly, these past few months I’ve been forgetful about writing, which was [...]

2010 was a lot of things. It was freedom. It was obsession. It was confronting fears and swallowing pride and asking for help. 2010 was writing not-yet-finished memoirs, six zines, short stories sent to literary journals. Four to six months is a long time to wait, but I will still keep writing. That memoir, I’m scrapping it, turning it fiction because that’s how I would [...]

A couple weeks ago an old acquaintance IMed me out of the blue. I blogged about it a little. Not much though beyond saying it happened. I met this girl online early in college. She was a random chat. We spent hours talking about all sorts of things. Love, relationships, life, and pain. Recently she had come across my website. I’ve owned illvision.net since 2002, [...]

There are certain game composers whose music style is just… theirs. The times signatures used, preferred instruments, the way epics sway and sweep before falling into a perfect loop that’s mandatory in almost all video game music. The one whose style is most noticeable to me is Motoi Sakuraba. His work is unmistakable. I hear a song I’ve never heard before in a game I’ve [...]