Jinked

I like when I’m busy because I don’t have the time to think about things that bother me. Being busy is great though, and being busy stirs all the happy in me, coating my insides with that warm, cozy feel-good feeling. I imagine it like warm chocolate drizzled over vanilla ice cream. Cherry on top. Right now I’m doing the two things I love (writing [...]

I’ve been keeping thought records this past week. I bring them in tomorrow and I guess the therapist and I are going to go over them. When do I jot down a thought record? When I am struck with an intense mood or series of mood. I scribbled one in my little notebook today. It goes like this: Situation: June 16th 2010, Wednesday Received an [...]

I spent seven hours today coding. I learned some useful PHP that makes building sites (especially large ones) even easier, and I fiddled with some fun jQuery plugins. When I have some free time I would like to learn how to make some of my own, or at least learn some of the basics. Some people learn languages like Spanish and Japanese to enrich themselves; [...]

I’ve always had a problem with relationships. There are multiple reasons why this is, and all my friends can tell you a different story I’m sure. At the root of it though, there is fear. Fear of meaning something to someone, fearing the chance things won’t work out, fear of disease. Even a fear of cheating which is completely irrational on my part given my [...]