Jinked

So for the past couple days I’ve been writing and editing copy for the fourth issue of Pieces which is on lucid dreaming. I’m debating whether or not I should make it a split zine where half of it is resource and half of it is experience. We’ll see. It’s a long chunk of text right now, well over 7,000 words. I write short stories that are much shorter than that. When I’m on a roll, I’m on a roll. I like it.

I’ve also been reading a lot lately. Some zines but mostly nonfiction, books on different schools of psychology, on theory, on the unconscious mind. I’ve never thought myself to be self-aware in certain areas of my life, but in the past couple months many people have relayed to me this bit of news. I wasn’t aware of being self-aware. Is that oxymoronic? I always thought I was crazy.

After reading and thinking and talking with people, I’m wondering if this self-awareness is and was a huge contributing factor for my anxiety. Not that self-awareness is a bad thing, it’s just I think I misused it or projected it in an awkward fashion sometimes. Or maybe everyone is wrong and I’m not self-aware at all. Something to consider too. I enjoy looking at all sides, from all angles. Even if there isn’t clarity, there are always new questions.

Jung’s archetypes have always fascinated me, especially in college. Right now I’m finding the archetypal psychology of James Hillman quite fascinating, especially since he puts a lot of emphasis on fantasy and myth within the human psyche. I immediately think of Syna when I think about Hillman. He seems to be someone she would fancy. I ordered a book of his from the library; I hope to get it soon.

Hopefully the zine copy will be finalize by the end of the week so I can start on layout. Due to its hefty size, I’m considering a 1/2 size zine rather than my usual 1/4. More text on a page that way and I don’t have to worry about threading through 15 sheets of paper. I’m really excited about this zine. It’s fun to see what I’ve put into practice over the last several weeks come out on paper. It’s going to be amazing. Interesting. I promise.